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Banking woes...

2008-10-08T10:41:00.001-07:00

I stood in front of the teller dumbfounded as she told me the news that my account was empty.

Silent tears streamed down my face yet I still felt calm in the face of this indignation.

She looked annoyed as I stood there silent -- unsure of what my next action was going to be.

Suddenly I felt someone bump into me from behind. I turned to see who this person was that was disturbing this extremely humiliating moment and there was no one there.

Distractedly I turned back to the teller who know seemed to go onto another task and was completely ignoring me.

:::bump:::

Again I turn and there is no one.

"Well the government seized your assets to pay its bills" - she said - reclaiming my attention.

But as I looked to her something seemed different... the room behind her seemed to be in darkness...

A flash of heat rises up my spine.

She continues to speak but her words trail off and her mouth no longer produces a sound...

...then my legs begin to part... my clit is called to attention.

Suddenly the room around me melts away to complete darkness and I become keenly aware that my papi's cock is seeking me out.

I become wholly aware of the mist of desire my body perpetuated without me.

I quickly come to appreciate the rigid readiness of my nipples.

While I'm late for the party I quickly learn my place.

I slide my thighs apart to assist in my baby's pursuit.

Hy's aware now that I am with hym and slides hys warm body on top of my backside -- hys knees slowly pushing my knees out to clear hys way.

Slowly hys hand snakes up my back -- over to my chest -- brushing my dangerously hardened nipples as hys hand cups over my shoulder... hy uses the leverage to insert hys cock into me -- slowly... tentatively at first -- then with more determination.

The instant that it fills my pussy, a wave of pleasure washes over the rest of me... my breath escapes quickly from my lips.

I can hear a pleased moan release from my daddy's lips as hys strokes deepen....quicken.

My spine curves in an effort to please hys cock's ravenous appetite for me.

I raise to my knees... face planted in the bed... ass high... an offering.

To hys knees my papi rises to meet the challenge... and hy fucks me with a a newly found strength.

...slap...

My ass trembles from the impact.

A new wave of creme releases inside me.

I watch below me as my tits dance to the rhythm of hys skin connecting with mine.

Hy exits and lays on hys back... I follow my back to hys and slip -- easily now -- onto hys erect phallus.

My long dark curls falling down and caressing my back as I grind hys cock as deep inside me as I can stand... over and over... hy jams hys hips up and into me and I thrust my pussy long and deep onto hys dripping cock.

Hys hands on my hips... pulling me down... leading the charge...

Hy grabs my hair and wraps the tendrils around hys fingers and pulls... I cum all over hys dick in an explosion of pleasure and pain.

I turn and lay on hym -- we are sweaty, sticky, wet... spent --

I sit here now -- thinking of hym...

I think I need to make another deposit.

Why do butch femme sites suck so much?

2008-06-30T07:50:00.000-07:00

Is it me or does every butch femme site out there really suck? I used to be a member of "the big" one -- which shall remain nameless. But I found that the people on that site were too clicky -- never giving those of us who'd never been to one of their gatherings a real chance to be friends.

Countless times I'd join a forum and post a response to someone's topic and countless times my response went unnoticed and it'd end up being just a handful of people going back and forth.

Then the straw that broke the camel's back was when I realized that unless you were a paid member you really had limited options and were treated "less than" -- and you know, I get enough of that in the real world, thanks. Add that to the out of control moderators -- well I just couldn't support that site anymore.

Then I joined another and another and another... either whoever was running it was a psycho or they have the paid "elite" group who get to personalize their experience.

The thing is, I know a thing or two about forums and there really is no need to charge people to have one. There are FREE options out there. Yeah, there will be some ads running. So what?

Isn't the point to get to meet other butch/femme people? To maybe make friends? God, if someone would for one second make an online community for us to just chill together and not try to rape us like the rest of the world, it'd be really nice.

Maybe I'll just do it my damn self. Who knows. :P

An awakening....

2008-05-14T07:56:00.001-07:00

I have begun a love affair. To my own surprise.

I have found that I really love how it feels to be in heels. I have only recently (within the past few years) begun to realize my inner femme. Having come out in a place where the homogenized androgynous lesbian reigns supreme, I never really coddled the femme within.

...I am starting to feel her stir.

I have these black lace-up chunky heeled shoes that I frequently wear to work and/or with jeans. The other day, while wearing them and when walking to the office from the car, I became acutely aware of my walk.

How incredibly feminine I felt. How sexy I felt.

And I thought, I really need to explore her and find myself within her whispered musings.

There's so much I want to do to accommodate her -- explore her sensual side but unfortunately I am in no position to perform a wardrobe overhaul to meet her demands.

In the meantime, I will relish in her ecstasy while in these chunky heels.... and wait to fully lavish her with the sexy femme essentials in time.

And the next time that daddi calls -- perhaps I will pull a pair of heels out of the closet before I lay before hym.

Sex Survey. Bear with me.

2008-05-02T20:27:00.001-07:00

Have you gotten laid this week? Not yet.

Ever had sex in a public place? Yes

Ever laugh during sex? Yes

Ever cry during sex? Yes

Do you like to cuddle after sex? Yes

Ever regret sex with someone? Yes…

Ever faked an orgasm? Yes!

Dirty talk, or STFU? Dirty talk…

Ever have unprotected sex? Yes… (*frown*)

Ever masturbate to your friend's significant other? Yes

Ever have a threesome? Yes

Ever watch porn during sex? Yes

Ever thought of someone else during sex? Yes

Has the condom ever broke? No

What is your most embarrassing sexual experience? Pussy farts fucking suck.

How old were you when you lost your virginity? 14

Do you like 69? No, too hard to concentrate…

Are you horny now? No…

Do you like sex in the car? I most certainly do.

Do you still talk to the person you lost your virginity to? No

Ever have sex with a relative/friend's significant other? Yes

Ever been with a cheater? Yes

Toys, good or bad? Oh so good…

Lingerie? If it pleases hym.

Ever sleep with a co-worker? Ummm -- sorta, yeah.

Have you had sex in the following places – yes or no:
Park: Yes
Pool: Yes
Hot Tub: Masturbated. :)
Church Parking Lot: LOL -- no but it's on my to do list.
Cemetery: No
School (or parking lot): Yes
Parent's Bed (other person's): Yes
Your bed: Yes
Car: Yes
Public library: No
In a barn: No... WTF are you sayin??
In front of a window (curtains open): Yes
Picnic table : No
In the snow: No, sounds chilly.
In a tree or tree house: No but if you find me a tree house -- we'll talk.
Same room while a friend was doing it: Yes
Same room with a friend watching: No
Dining room/kitchen table: No
Kitchen counter: I think it may have started there...
Couch/chair: Yes
Pool table: No
On top of a bar: No - I'll leave that shit to Usher.
Front lawn in daylight: Shyeah, I think my neighbors hate me NOW...
On top of the roof: No but if I had a flat roof, I'd totally be on that.
On a bus (school/public/coach): No
Public restroom: No
Woods: Yes
Hood of a car: No, but it's on my bucket list.
Bathroom: Yes
Shower: Yes
Porch/deck/balcony: No
In a house with parent's home: Yes
At a party: No
On top of the washer/dryer: No - but turn that bitch on and see what's up....
With other people in the room: Yes
Field: No
Beach: Yes

Soon.

2008-04-21T07:55:00.001-07:00

Yesterday hy put hys thumb inside me while hy fingered my pussy.

While my body was twisting and grinding for hym.... hy warned me of things to come.

Now I cannot focus while I await with dripping anticipation the punishments I am to receive.

"Daddy's going to get me when I get home."

It's just the gentlemanly thing to do!

2008-02-26T08:02:00.001-08:00

Chivalry is something that comes naturally to me. Lighting cigarettes, opening doors, picking up dropped items are just some of the things that I do without even giving any thought to it.

I'm kicking myself for not having my lighter in the right pocket and allowing someone else to lean in and light my girl's cigarette.

I am a little bit torn here since de-programming myself may be really difficult. I don't know how not to be a gentleman. On the other hand no one comes before my girl. No one. If I have to cut back on the chivalry with others in order to make her happy, I may just do that. ;)

Quick with a joke or light of your smoke....

2008-02-25T12:05:00.001-08:00

Recently I realized that there is something sexy about someone else lighting your cigarette. So much so that when anyone does it other than my boi, I feel a little dirty.

There's something flirtatious about it to me.

The other day a cigarette dangled from my lips as 3 of use went out for a smoke and the other lesbian present -- a bit butch -- leaned in, cupped her hands and I leaned my mouth towards her to set the nicotine aflame.

A small part of me felt embarassed to be so brazen right in front of my baby.

The moment passed quickly -- but the thought remained.

How would I feel if my daddy were to do that to another femme?

The answer is: I would not like it.

Not one little bit.

A View From Above

2008-02-05T17:13:00.000-08:00

Yes, baby. Say it louder... tell Daddy what you want.

You look so beautiful, so perfect to me- your scent is driving me wild.

I can see your sex getting ready- juicy, swollen, begging for your Master's attention.

Mind- racing. Flesh- dripping with desire. Cock- strong and hard.

Won't let you know how badly I want you. I want you to beg for me. Plead with me. Squirm with anticipation.

Your body quivers, your voice trembles, your eyes penetrate through me into my softened heart.

You've found me out, I give in to your sweet cries for my touch. My hands and lips cannot wait any longer.

Ass. Thighs. Back. Pussy. Mmmm baby... you've missed me. You are ready.

As I enter your you warm, drenched hole, you reach back and grab onto me, pulling me toward you "deeper Daddy, harder Daddy...please"

My babygirl always gets what she wants.

A view from below

2008-02-05T13:29:00.001-08:00

With skin still steaming from a hot shower...

Hair dripping down my back...

Soft scent of my body wash rising from my goose fleshed landscape...

I lay before hym with my legs bent...

The rear of my femininity exposed out of my view...

Hy is pulling his cock out for my amusement....

I watch with heated anticipation...

My lips swell as they remember hym...

Hys eyes find mine - moisture arrives...

Whispers trail from my lips as I plead for you to enter me...

Fuck Me Daddy.

TO BE CONTINUED...

Angry Sex?

2008-02-02T17:30:00.000-08:00

*Smirk* who knew? I look forward to the next fight you pick.

Angry Sex

2008-02-02T09:25:00.001-08:00

We got into a fight the other day.

The next day when I was thinking about the fight, I thought to myself. I wish I had fucked hym right in the middle of it.

Hy very rarely gets that angry with me and I think that if hy was plunging hys cock into me with all that built up aggression that I may have exploded all over it in a way that could possibly leave me blind.

That night I started picking a fight.

Meeting the Family

2008-02-01T08:09:00.001-08:00

She's too hard on herself, my girl. No reason for my pretty girl to apologize. I understood why we were there and that coming out to Her religious family was not really on the agenda. I'm sure my appearance does speak for itself and that they assumed that I was Hers.

They were nice to me.. I appreciate their kindness. And genuine at that, I could tell. I liked them all.

She ended up making up for the lack of proper introduction that first day when She told everyone at the wake and funeral of my position in Her life.

Sad times. Yet somehow, She still managed to get a smirk out of me.

Meeting the family

2008-01-24T09:03:00.001-08:00

We went yesterday to visit my family.

It was my father's side of the family -- whom I didn't grow up with -- and don't know too well... two members that had never met hym before.

One knew that we were married and was very sweet about meeting hym. The other, I don't believe, doesn't even know I'm a lesbian.

But they are my two favorite relatives on that side of the family.

The reason we went there is because they were up visiting from out of town due to an impending death in the family (my other uncle is on his death bed).

Did I introduce her as my hersband?

I didn't.

Being that hy is butch, sometimes I do just let that speak for itself.

But did I speak up? No, I did not.

I found out later that this affected hym.

I feel horrible about that.

I'm sorry papi.

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